4 short years ago, our family of 8 lived in an old mill house. Two bedrooms and One bathroom were crammed into the meager 700 sq. ft. of living area. The decision to do that was made when my husband was laid off from his job and wanted to re-start his company.
I was very miserable during that time and I made sure that my husband and God knew it. I found myself murmuring and complaining when I should have been thanking God that I wasn’t homeless.
It took me a long time to become thankful for what I had and not focus on the “have-nots”.
God helped me to work out several areas that I’ve reaped the harvest from. I learned in His Word that I reap what I sow. I was sowing some really bad seed. Seeds of pride, bitterness, discontentment, and disrespect toward my husband.
James 3:11-12 comes to mind, “Does a spring send forth fresh water and bitter from the same opening? Can a fig tree, my brethren, bear olives, or a grapevine bear figs? Thus no spring yields both salt water and fresh.”
I wanted the good things (a more livable and safe home). I wanted comfort; a space of my own. I wanted it all in MY time…right now!! I had some growing up to do. My mouth and my mind set were not helping the situation.
I had experience many times when God suddenly moved for us. I just wasn’t “getting” why He was taking His precious time to get me out of that less than desirable state. HIS desire was for me to learn and “come up higher”; to know His truth and goodness; to discover His overflow.
First, my heart was changed. I surrounded myself with women that could care less about what my little home looked like. They were more concerned with how appreciative I was that my husband was following God’s leading and that I should show and give him my respect and support above all else. I’ve reaped the ever-growing devotion of my husband.
Second, my faith was transformed. My husband and I got our hearts and minds in line with God’s Word; God’s truth and promises of blessing and provision. With my husband’s work being so sporadic, I learned more about him. Our family stood in agreement that God wants His very best for His children. Lack is something that we could do without.
We’ve reaped a home that is spacious enough for our family, better knowledge of God’s Word and the tools to use at all times.
The last two years of us living in that little house is where God became more real to me. I learned how to trust Him, how to have an intimate relationship with Him, how to not be complacent but to be expectant, to see His hand move in miraculous ways.
I was most ungrateful, the most spoiled and childish. If I didn’t get a firm grip on who I was/am in Christ (the entire book of Ephesians) and if I hadn’t buckled up and let God take me through that journey willingly, then I wouldn’t have seen the value in a “lesson learned”. That, for me, is called reaping.
Let me leave you with some verses that ministered to me during that time (and still grips my heart):
Deuteronomy 28, Psalm 37, Psalm 86, Psalm 91, Proverbs 4:7, Isaiah 40:31, Isaiah 55, Malachi 3:8-11, Mark 11:12-25, Romans 12:2, 1 Corinthians 13:13, Ephesians, Hebrews 11-12:1-11.
Until Next Time…Be Abundantly Blessed,