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I had THE perfect Scripture and the perfect post swirling in my head.
“Word of God speak! God almost always shows up when I write at the last moment! He’s always right on time!!” is what I boasted in a tweet to a friend.
I thought I had all my stuff together.
As soon as I sat down to write, life interrupted for the rest of the night. Before I allowed myself to get to full-blown aggravation, I shrugged it off and chocked it up to my family simply needing me.
Every intention to get up the next morning to meet the sun was dashed with more hours of sleep.
I’ll just write after I get the kids’ lessons done for the day.
Frustration came to a head when I got no quiet that I desperately begged the kids for.
That perfect post? Completely G.O.N.E.!
“I gotta get out of this house!” I say. My emotions were about to get the best of me.
Throwing on my hoodie and sneakers, I head to the grocery store.
Needing God to help me block out the noise and busyness in my mind, there I sit scribbling this post in the parking lot.
I’m halted by God’s gentle words to me; the words that could only come when I sat still:
“This is where I want you at this very moment. I wanted to get you completely alone. It’s been a while. How have you been, My daughter? I already know, but I’d really like for you to pour your heart out to Me.
What troubles you? What are you anxious about? You know that My word speaks to that exact thing. Slow it down. There are so many things that are out of your control. I know your heart and desires for your daughter. That literal, physical pain you feel when she hurts; because you two are so well connected? Yeah…I, as your Father feel that pain because you and I, we’re so well connected.
Just as you desire the best for her, I’ve already got the best for her. She’s My child too, you know. She talks to Me too.
Rest. Cease striving. Regain your balance and live like you trust Me.
You DO trust Me. Don’t you?”
My Daddy spoke directly to my heart and to my pain. He heals me and give me so much hope of a future.
It’s what He does and it’s what He’s already said:
For I know the thoughts that I think toward you, says the LORD, thoughts of peace and not of evil, to give you a future and a hope. Jeremiah 29:11(NKJV).
In the quiet of those 15 minutes, God washed me with the promise of His presence and with the assurance that I’m heard, that He cares and that He delights in answering my prayers.
He wanted time alone, and it was in that moment that I realized that I wasn’t “running away from home”, but that I was running to His Mercy seat. Not only was I running to talk to Him, but to hear from Him.
Are you running away to find a place of quiet and peace? I encourage you to run into our Father’s arms. He’ll have a word for you.
I wrote that post exactly a year ago! God has shown so much grace, mercy and blessing over the year! He more than heard me and spoke to me, He came through! The hurt, pain and loneliness was mightily redeemed!!
Living With Sword and Coffee,